My prince of peace!

It might be a little confusing why I entitled this blog my prince of peace, but it'll make sense in the end. :) So lets start out with the scripture I was thinking about. 1 Thessalonians 5: 17 "Give thanks in call circumstances" When I read this the first time I just read it how it say give thanks in all circumstances but I never really thought out what it means to give thanks in ALL circumstances. I mean we hear all the time Oh I will Praise you in this storm..Run to Jesus when things get hard blah blah blah but it isn't often when we thank Jesus for our hard times..or for that matter in our good times. I was faced with a situation today where my stomache just went in knots and I was like honestly "Jesus give me peace PLEASE" and I promise you instantly his peace washed over me and this scripture came to mind. And It was so cool for me to pray and prayer and it instantly just happened. I was so thankful and you say of course you were thankful but in that moment I wasn't thankful that he put a peace on my spirit but I was thankful for being uncomfortable. Because I think I forget too many times to lean on Jesus for my strength. I think I can walk into an uncomfortable situation by myself with no help needed. And tonight proved to me I can't I am weak and I needed to be humbled. It was so great. But the reason I entitled this prince of peace is I feel like the last week or so something has been uneasy about me. I haven't felt myself or almost I haven't felt safe which is weird I know. But I realized it was all Jesus preparing my heart to need his peace. And in my circumstance of having an uneasy feeling all week, I am thankful. I just love Jesus. I feel like everything I write about it God's sovergeinty, and it is. I know it is hard to say oh my favorite quality of God is this or that. But knowing Jesus is in control of my life and I have no will probably really is my favorite quailty bc I know how bad I would mess my life up. I just can't help but fall even more in love with Jesus when I think of that. So thats all :)

Dinner chats!

So I went to dinner with some wonderful ladies last night! We had a wonderful time just fellowshiping and celebrating two birthdays. When we got on the conversation of being single. There were only 3 ladies that were single myself and two others. I had a great conversation about being single and enjoying it. People are always talking about how they are better people when they are in a relationship and I am the exact opposite! I grow more being single! I am more receptive to learn and I enjoy life more. Not saying I don't want to be in a relationship or if a guy tried pursuing me I would reject him right away but right now neither of those are the case and I am just really enjoying life. I am living in a peace knowing God is in control of every aspect of my life and when the right guy walks into my life I know the Lord will let me know. I know he will be the man of my dreams and the best friend I have ever had. Knowing how great he is going to be, makes it well worth wait. I truly look forward to having a relationship like the couple in song of Solomon. I think girls look over that too many times. They look for the momentary comfort in being in a relationship and that isn't healthy or they just know in the long run it won't go anywhere. Girls settle far too much for a man who knows how to talk a good game but can't walk the walk in the long run. And if I were able to talk to every single girl right now and have them listen to me. I would tell them to stop settling for anything less than everything you desire in a man. Lord created you unique and he created your future husband to fit you perfectly. The guy that doesn't treat you like your extraordinary isn't the one for you. Stop filling that hole in your heart with just a normal guy and fill it with The Man that died on the cross because He loves you! He loves you more than you can ever comprehend. And He made someone for specially for you. Don't rush just be patient :) And have a wonderful thanksgiving!

A nugget of unfortunate truth.

Ok, I was thinking this weekend. I think every guy KNOWS how to treat a girl right. I mean think about it, it is posted ALL over facebook, twitter, pinterest and whatever other social media site. How can a guy posbbily not know how to treat a girl? Got me thinking. It isn't that they don't know how to it is that they don't desire to treat a girl right. Because they look at that girl and say (subconsiously) "I don't think she is the one worth settling down for." Which takes me back to Proverbs 19:22 but also takes me back to praying and waiting. Ladies if the guy doesn't treat you like you are truly a gift given by God the first week you guys are talking/dating chances are it is only going to get worse because at the begining of the relationship he is still trying to impress you. He is not yet comfortable around you. So if he doesn't treat you like a princess the odds are that he doesn't think you are worth wimping into shape for. There is a saying in order to attract a prince you have to act like a princess I think that is very true. Hold out for the guy that walks into your life and treats you like nobody else has ever treated you. Hold out for the guy that doesn't try to suedece you but tries to be friend you, the one that pursues to get to know you. Those are the ones worth waiting for!

Now ladies we also have to take into consideration there will be guys that know and desire to treat girls right no matter who they are. Regardless of whether or not they believe you are the one or not. We also need to be aware of those because sometimes they are wolves in sheeps clothing. It seems like they are pursuring you but really they are suedcing you with their charm. Guys are so tricky sometimes which is why i rely on prayer and God's timing! "Above all else guard your heart" Proverbs 4:23! <3

What is to be desired.

Ok, So this really doesn't have anything about who I am but it has a lot to do with what I want in a man and that kind has something to do with me. I mean he will be my husband one day ANYWAY! I was driving home listening to a breakawya podcast they are in a series about the Song of Songs and its actually for young single adults (that's me!) And the Pastor was talking about in Proverbs 19:22 in my translation it say "What is desired in a man is steadfast love, and a poor man is better than a liar" Well in his translation is was more along the lines of kindness is to be desired. and basically a man with nothing is better than a jerk. And this really got me thinking about females today and what we desire. I am totally the notorious girl that thinks all the good looking jerks are attractive thats a given. But I believe what we should be going after is the kindness and gentleness of a man. But hey girls, I feel like I never give the nice guys a chance either. But that is what we should want. I understand attraction and looks are importmant but looks will fade and we should put more importance on the character of a man. I have really been on this waiting kick all about patiently waiting in my personal blog that I write to myself. And in Song of Song the girl is talking to her friends and she says to them O daughters of Jerusalm wait And she talks about how intimate her relationship with her fiance/husband is and how great it is. "For your love is better than wine; your anointing oils are fragrant; your name is oil poured out." character and name go hand and hand in the bible. So she says his name is good! She says "Do not stir up for awaken love until it pleases." I think that is the most important thing I have learned. That love needs to be based on 2 important things 1. Christ, a relationship should have Christ in the middle and Christ should be what brings you together and 2. Friendship, and Kindness. Like I have said before the good looking ones are always jerks but the ones that are your best friends that are kind that open the door for you. The ones we generally throw in the friendzones make the best husbands! Attraction will grow when you learn to look past the looks of a person and look into their heart. Just my tad bit on dating and relationships as a single woman awaiting her Boaz :)

Running the wrong direction

This morning basically SUCKED! I could not sleep at all last night so waking up I was already not in the best mood then I went to meet with the woman in charge of distributing the international scholarships only to find out I am not elligable bc I was not at Sam last year. So feeling super defeated when I got home I tried doing homework and it just wasn't working out. So I decided to get on pinterest to try to motivate me find a quote or something. And I found a verse Isiah 43:4. Because you are precious in my eyes, and honored, and I love you. I loved it because Jesus just flat out says "I love you" that is always a good reminder so then I decided I wanted to read the whole chapter 43. And I just fell in love with so many verses. But at the same time the Lord used in so many ways to open my eyes up to the bad and the just downfall I guess you can say I have been in. It made me realize that this trip I have been so excited to go was just away for me to run away. To just run away from everything that has been going on. My way to escape and forget all of it. When why would I wait till May to escape it when I need to be running to Jesus. I need him to be my rock and comforter through all this. After He talks to Jacob about all the wrong he has done in verse 25 it says "I am He who blots out your trangressions for my own sake, and I will NOT remember your sin" and I just started balling because Jesus is just so GOOD! I know that in my lifetime I have done horrible things and I have ran from him but he still keeps his arms open wide to me. And tells me he IGNORES all that I have done for HIS sake. Not for my sake! So why am I running away from my problems? when I can be running to Jesus. Why am I not going on this trip to be light to the family I'll be living with, to the students I'll be going with and spending all my time with? It gave me a whole new outlook on this trip. Now I am not praying the finically for this trip but I am praying because I believe the Lord is sending me to be His hands and feet.

Seeking Him.

So I have a lot to let out.

I did an internship a couple years and reflecting back on it I really believe I went in wanting to figure out who I was in this whole christianity thing. In the internship I didn't find myself at all I was actually molded into something the internship wanted me to be. But one thing I found that would later help me figure out who I was, was I found a lot of Jesus (Praise God)! After my internship I did a year at a community college and that year was when I figured out who I was what I wanted and all that stuff. I am so truly thankful for the people that helped me figure that stuff out along the way but more than anything! I am SO truly thankful that I found Jesus because He has formed my walk to His will. I went through heartbreak thinking it was the end of my world when in reality it was just opening my world up! Praise God for my year of seeking him and knowing he was in control! Because if not like I said my world would be over. But thanks to unanswered prayers I am finding myself heading over seas in a couple of months. Just thinking about stepping off the plane in Spain my heart flairs up with overwhelming joy! And I just can't help but know that Jesus truly shaped my life knowing all this was going to happen. He didn't send me into a battle to be defeated but he sent me into a battle knowing I wouldn't be able to handle it and knew I would need him to step in. He knew where I was heading in life was based off what I thought was right for me and not what HE had planned. Like the scripture in Proverbs 21:19 Many are the plans in a man heart but the will of God prevails. I just can't express how truly thankful I am for HIS will. And truly thankful that I DESIRE to live my life off HIS will and NOT MY own. Just thinking about Him guarding my plans makes my heart stand even more in awe at Him.

Time is coming to an end

I now have 31 days till I will be moving to Huntsville. I am getting more and more excited as the number is going down. However I have recently realized I am more excited for other things then actually being in a new town. I am excited for school to start up so I can go see Professor Cataldo. I really miss that woman. I was always just kidding in an excessive kind of way when I called her my best friend but freakishly enough she kind of was. She really was like a mom to me. I also can't wait to meet my new spanish professor I looked her up and read all the comments about her she seems so much like Professor Cataldo so I really can't wait to meet her (although no one can replace Cataldo). I am also excited to move out so I don't have to share a bathroom with anyone, anymore! PRAISE JESUS! Even though I am excited to move I am also going to miss so much! I know one of the things I am going to miss most is my job! Not the unorganized crazy part of my job. But I am going to miss my students perking me up when I am sad. I am most definitely more than anything going to miss Isabelle who has become like my own child these last 8 months. Saying goodbye to her in 2 weeks is going to be IMPOSSIBLE I already know. Of course I am going to miss my family and friends here as well. I will also miss my new lifestyle buddy Sam. These last 2 weeks we've been together almost everyday working out or doing something. We've completely changed our eating habits and everything! I really hope that is something I don't lose track of when I am in Hunstville. Anyway I think this is coming to and end....


31 dayss!!