Seeking Him.

So I have a lot to let out.

I did an internship a couple years and reflecting back on it I really believe I went in wanting to figure out who I was in this whole christianity thing. In the internship I didn't find myself at all I was actually molded into something the internship wanted me to be. But one thing I found that would later help me figure out who I was, was I found a lot of Jesus (Praise God)! After my internship I did a year at a community college and that year was when I figured out who I was what I wanted and all that stuff. I am so truly thankful for the people that helped me figure that stuff out along the way but more than anything! I am SO truly thankful that I found Jesus because He has formed my walk to His will. I went through heartbreak thinking it was the end of my world when in reality it was just opening my world up! Praise God for my year of seeking him and knowing he was in control! Because if not like I said my world would be over. But thanks to unanswered prayers I am finding myself heading over seas in a couple of months. Just thinking about stepping off the plane in Spain my heart flairs up with overwhelming joy! And I just can't help but know that Jesus truly shaped my life knowing all this was going to happen. He didn't send me into a battle to be defeated but he sent me into a battle knowing I wouldn't be able to handle it and knew I would need him to step in. He knew where I was heading in life was based off what I thought was right for me and not what HE had planned. Like the scripture in Proverbs 21:19 Many are the plans in a man heart but the will of God prevails. I just can't express how truly thankful I am for HIS will. And truly thankful that I DESIRE to live my life off HIS will and NOT MY own. Just thinking about Him guarding my plans makes my heart stand even more in awe at Him.